I was terrified of meds at first as I thought they would kill my creativity. They didn’t, but they did kill my quality of life which was already pretty awful. However, I must stress that these meds were not right for me. It’s been a long journey but I am finally on ones that help me. They’re not perfect and I would rather not be on them, but I think everyone would rather be pill free. I know people on physical health meds that wish they were pill free too. But I do need them and they help me a lot more than hinder me. For example, I cannot breast feed my daughter because of them, which is upsetting, but it also means her mommy is mentally well. I’d rather be mentally well and a good mom, rather than an unwell mom who can breastfeed. It’s not easy but I think hardly anything ever is.